Im confuse..

I don't know what I want to be..I don't who I love..I don't who should I love..I don't know who should I hate..

I'm lost? or I'm confuse?

I'm not sure about almost anything.

When finally my mind is set, it can easily change but I know a few things.

I love to sing, I love to dance and I know I want people to know what I'm good at.

I don't want anyone to tell me what I can't do.

I know what is wrong and what is right, I'm not stupid.

But I f you treat me like that, I'm not so sure anymore.

I love you hun

First, I should be saying this to my boyfriend upfront but I will surely get embarrass before I can say anything so I want to say it in my blog. My friend said I should always update, I do want to but sometimes I'm blank. Hehehe,Actually I want to post a whole bunch of things but when I open my laptop I'm blank. Huh! What to do.

So I want to say.. I love you to my boyfriend. Even though I know him for not quite long but he is different. He would take time to make me happy, he would take effort to make me open up to him,he would take a mile for me and I'm so happy. I really miss him since I haven't seen him in a week. LOL, I know that's not really a long period but I really miss him. I really want to make him happy since he made me this happy but I don't know how. I want him to smile, treat me how he always treat me and to always stand by me but all I can do is pray. I don't know what will happen to us in the future, I just hope for the best.

.I LOVE YOU.

I AM AGAINST ANIMAL ABUSE

The mother cat kept licking the kittens, hoping it would revive them. According to the family that adopted the stray cat, on the morning of the 11th when they heard the cat’s tragic cries, they rushed downstairs to discover this stray cat’s four kittens abused to death, and even placed in front of the mother cat. The kittens’ bodies were covered with bullet holes, with blood all over. One of the kittens had its neck tied with a rope and elongated, its chest cut open, heart exposed, while the other three kittens’ heads were stepped on.

REBLOG THIS PICTURE TO SHOW YOU’RE AGAINST ANIMAL ABUSE!- I hope every each one of us make a different by showing kindness,love and care even to a small creature. Remember,you are a human but as shown above that is not very human like. Thank You.

Friends?

To be honest I can't live without friends,I will feel lonely and soulless if no one is beside me. Though I never really appreciate them and I don't really show that I love them. I will treat girls and boys differently without noticing,sometimes I treat boys fiercely I don't really mean it,I'm sorry but I really like you guys because you guys always make me laugh. Now I am really bored because I want to see my friends but I have no transport, I'm enjoying my holiday with Internet.

I want to use this opportunity to thank and show my appreciation towards my friends. I love you guys and I hope we will always be close even though we're far from each other. Also,I am sorry if I ever hurt you guys, It wasn't intentional. Last but not least, since I haven't post anything in quite awhile I just want to say thanks for following my blog. Hehehe, I crack myself up.

My first date,damn! But I love it.

I feel like screaming! I'm 16 years old and I think I'm still naive. Yesterday,I went out on a date with my boyfriend and I felt so embarrass. but I love it. We watch Dream House together and I notice his eyes glued to me,well sometimes. I had fun! We walk and talk for hours and to be honest I didn't want it to end. I really like him,how he call my name how he look at me so softly but why can't I love him? Is it because of my past boyfriends? I'm having such a headache but putting that a side exam! Arr..!! Hehehe, I love my first ever date!! Hehehe,don't say I'm naive even though it's the truth. Love you mom!!! ^___^

Love Nipon...

Today was one of my precious memory. The day before I slept for one hour and a half only and suppose that I have trouble waking up but no,I woke up with eyes fresh and wide open. After reaching to school I ate my breakfast with my friend,sharing a piece of bread because I was to nervous to eat it all. Then 9 o'clock,finally our Japanese friends arrived. I was so damn happy!! One by one got out to an open space. Wow!! They all had a big smile on their face. Long story short, we continued our next activity and that was to teach them about Malaysia,our language,arts and others. First I went to Malay language class with my partner,Saki but then I got to know she was suppose to go to another class,that really broke my heart. Damn sad!! After sending Aoi and Saki to the right place me and my friend were partner less so we went to art class,there were so many good looking guys. I had my fun,taking pictures with them. During the art class,there is this guy in pink t-shirt,he kept saying his art was beautiful and that his friends said "huh,no! " They argued,so cute. I just agreed with him "yes,so beautiful". So last but not least, our separation. Damn sad!! Me and Saki said our goodbyes and so is My friend Syasya and Aoi. We took a lot of pictures and hug for so many times. We walk with them until reaching to their buses. We hug again and said our final goodbye. I love them,they were nice and friendly. Every time we said kawai they would reply thank you with a huge smile on their faces. It was really hard to communicate with them but our little talks meant a lot to me. Sayonara! Aishiteru! Aoi-chan,Saki-chan and others!!

Under Pressure..Ice Ice Baby

From the start,I don't really have a heart for account but eventually I took it because my mom wants me to. T^T Then I always got D = 43..44..45 . Now,I have to do Account folio. It was so damn hard,first I got sick so I couldn't go to school at the same day my account teacher taught my classmates how to do the folio. My loss~ Then! I finally started to do the folio then! My friend said I got it wrong so ok,I fix it then! My teacher said I got it wrong again. Ok ok,I continued.. Today! I finally got the calculation balanced then! I found out I 'rugi' means I had to many loss,I asked teacher and she smiled "do it again" Arr...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I cried,huh.. Then my friends feel bad for me so they help me out. Change my urusniaga to document to buku tunai to lejar to imbangan duga.. Then... I finally got it!!! Then I cried again!!! I was so damn happy!! Thank God!! Now? No more account ,now? Kpop!!!! Yay!! Ingkigayo!! Heaven!! :)

Welcome to Malaysia but I'm sad

Im so happy that you're coming to Malaysia or you already reach to Malaysia but it's sad knowing we're in the same country but I can't see you. I wish that you would wait at least 1 year before coming here. A few of my friends are going and I envy them. I wish I can bump to you somehow but I have somewhere to attend to tomorrow. I want to cry,oppa! I really want to see you but I guess it's too late to take my friend's offer. I hope you have fun in Malaysia and fall in love with Malaysia. I hope you stay here longer. Well I should stop crying over a spilt milk, Oppa saranghae! Until you come to Malaysia again We Angels will wait for you or I will come to Korea and see you myself, LOL. Niel oppa! L.Joe oppa! Cap oppa! Chunji oppa! Ricky-ah! Changjo-ah! Mani mani saranghae! Take care..

Chunji oppa,I love you in Clap and I hate you in Don't spray perfume but I'm still your fan especially your voice and your smile. Mianhe,oppa! :)

I want to be honest,sorry.

I don't know why I'm like this. I fall in love then got hurt,cried my eyes out but if fall for someone again and I easily trust them. How stupid am I? My heart just don't get it or is it my mind? I promise myself that with this guy I go slow but I just broke my own promise. I like him,he is so different from others but we have so many differences such as age,but put that a side he said he wants a girl who covers..and I'm so not,I'd like to wear anything I love from shorts to long pants to skirt..and bla bla bla. Besides that, his interest in music is so different from mine,I like music that I can sing my lungs out and music that I can dance,even sexy dance but he likes Indie. I don't know what I'm suppose to do,I don't want him to fall for me then I'll brake his heart. I want to be honest with him but I just can't and I'm going nuts just thinking about it. I'm sorry if you ever read this but please understand from my perspective. I do like you. Honey!~

Out to Time Square

With Big sis

And Future brother-in-law

Ugly

I think I'm ugly

And nobody wants to love me

Just like her I wanna be pretty

I wanna be pretty

Don't lie to my face

Telling me I'm pretty

I think I'm ugly

And nobody wants to love me

Just like her I wanna be pretty

I wanna be pretty

Don't lie to my face

Cuz I know I'm ugly

I'm all alone

I My Me Mine..Love It

My Husband <3

Kim Heechul

Super Junior

My Husband...

Ahn Daniel

Teen Top.. <3

Happy Birthday!~

Okay,I love Teen Top. Now they are my fave Korean boy band. And...my favourite member of Teen Top.. Drum roll please.. Its Niel. First time I ever laid my eyes on them especially Niel was during their first debut, 10th of July 2010. Well to be honest I didn't really know them at the very moment. I know them a few weeks after their debut but I attracted to them the moment I lay my eyes on them. Their charisma and the way they bring themselves..so cool. When myself is down Niel's smile would surely brighten my day. Lol... He is my Bias!~ Today is his Birthday and I really wanted to do something like this~ and I thought of doing a video but I forgot to charge the video cam. Damn! Ok... the reason i wanted to write all of these is because I really really love him, he is the only guy that could never break my heart. Huhuhu....Choneunyo, jinjja neomu neomu Niel oppa sarangheyo. Last but not least.. Oppa Saeng-il Chukkhae! Have a nice sweet 17th Birthday... Always Clap your hands when you are happy, Let's dance when we both can go to the club, Come into the new world and Transform ourselves, I'll give you my Supa Luv and be the Angel in your heart, Don't spray perfume because I love you just the way you are, The back of my hand brushes against you and feel the warmth, I hope your First kiss haven't been taken away, Oppa Tell me why and how to be your Beautiful girl, Oppa Love you..

Life?

I have live for 16 years but I feel like I'm still to young to know whats the meaning of life. So far I have just been through heartbreak, arguments with parents, homosepians saying they are my friends but actually they hate me and others that even I couldn't think of. Can I say that I have been through a lot? or I'm just kid? Learning the word Life... WTH!~ :))

I remembered when I was just a kid I was so naive, and full of positive thinking but now its so hard to stay positive. Can I smile after I'd just fought? Can I smile after someone just crushed my heart? Yes, I can.. :))